Month in Review | March 2019


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The highlight of March this year was definitely our little trip to Turks & Caicos! I highly recommend it if you have never been! The gorgeous natural beauty and colors there were truly unparalleled. I felt the effect of the vacation even more than usual becauseโ€ฆBURNOUT! Burnout is a real thing y'all and I honestly didn't realize how burned out I was until I noticed how relaxed I was on vacation. It's funny how you sort of get used to working all of the time and suddenly when you're not working all of the time, you realize how nice it is! ๐Ÿ™ˆ๐Ÿ™ˆ

This has really motivated me to try to take more intentional "vacation-ish" breaks. I'm not always going to be able to take a full-blown tropical vacation (I wish!) but I'm hoping to incorporate more breaks into my regular programming. I found that our trip to Turks & Caicos was immensely helpful in allowing me to reset and reconnect with why I do the work I do rather than just getting overwhelmed by the sheer magnitude of it all.

I'm hoping to incorporate more long weekend-y trips throughout the year so I can get that rest and recharge feel with a shorter amount of time! Do you have any suggestions for how you incorporate more rest and relaxation into your regular schedule? I'd love to hear about your experience and your ideas!

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Month in Review | February 2019


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Hope your February was absolutely wonderful, my friends! I used to do a Month in Photos series every month and I really missed it so thought I'd bring it back in a somewhat new form to just review what's happened in life over the past month! It's really nice to be able to reflect and appreciate all that's happened whether that's through words, photos, or everything in between. I've always been a big proponent of keeping a journal, but sometimes life gets in the way  and reflecting through photos is just a tad easier :)

This past month was admittedly quite uneventful, but that's pretty on brand for me :P I'm a 100% homebody and honestly, if I haven't spent enough time at home, I really miss it! This month also began my 2nd semester of graduate school. I haven't taken much time to reflect on my graduate school journey over here on the blog, but if you'd like to hear more, let me know in the comments! It's been a journey to say the least. I feel slightly more confident this semester than I did the last, but the imposter syndrome is still present. I'm just trying my best to remember my little 2019 motto of impermanence - while I might feel overwhelmed and completely incompetent at times, it's an impermanent feeling and one that will inevitably pass as I learn and grow in this career.

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Twenty Nineteen Word of the Year โ™ฅ


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Hello, everyone! Today, I thought Iโ€™d share my word of the year for twenty nineteen! In case you havenโ€™t already guessed by the photo above, the word Iโ€™ve chosen for this year is impermanence.

The timing of this post might seem a little strange since itโ€™s the middle of February and not January 1st (when most people would be posting and sharing their new yearโ€™s goals), however, I actually think this is the perfect time to re-focus because I find this is about the time during the year when all my ambitious new yearโ€™s goals fall to the wayside! 

I gave up setting (usually giant and unachievable) new yearโ€™s goals a couple of years ago. Through instagram, I found a little community of people who choose to set words of the year rather than lists of goals. This really resonated with me because, frankly, a word of the year is much easier to remember than a whole list of goals! I have anxiety, and when there are too many things to do and not enough time, my anxiety loves to show up and remind me of how stressed I should be :) Setting a word of the year has helped me simplify things, has forced me to decide what truly matters to me, and allows me to set a more holistic theme that I can use to approach any decision or situation in the upcoming year. 

Last year, I chose balance as my word of the year and it truly shaped my year for the better. Remembering to keep things balanced really allowed me to be kinder to myself. In areas where I mightโ€™ve beat myself for not working hard enough, having this overarching theme of balance reminded me that not every day was about working day in and day out! While I might work my butt off one day, the next day, I might lounge around the house with very little motivation - and thatโ€™s completely okay! The idea of balance helped me treat myself with more compassion and allowed me to enjoy my down time rather than feeling guilty. 

This year, I settled on the word impermanence because itโ€™s really struck a chord with me after my first semester of graduate school. As much as I tried to prepare for the intensity that is a PhD program, nothing can truly prepare you for the onslaught of work and high expectations it throws your way! Through the more difficult exams, projects, and research roadblocks, knowing that nothing will last forever has helped immensely. That feeling of not knowing what Iโ€™m doing and feeling like Iโ€™m so far behind? Impermanent. That feeling of anxiety before a big presentation? Impermanent. The 100th freezing cold, snowy day in Wisconsin? Also impermanent! Iโ€™m really happy with what Iโ€™ve chosen as my focus for twenty nineteen. The concept of impermanence as already helped me immensely and I know it will continue to help me keep things in perspective throughout this year. 

I also wanted to share that I didnโ€™t settle on this word until the end of January! I think itโ€™s incredibly important to give adequate time and thought to what you want the focus of your year to be. At first, I thought Iโ€™d continue to focus on balance because it had been working so well for me, however, it didnโ€™t resonate with me the same way it had a year ago. I felt like Iโ€™d grown past the idea of balance and already adopted it fully into my life. Learning to let things go and overcoming the anxiety thatโ€™s come with graduate school is a new challenge Iโ€™ve faced over the past couple of months and the idea of impermanence felt like a more appropriate starting point. All of which is to say, take your time deciding on your focus for the year! Thereโ€™s nothing special about January 1st so donโ€™t put so much pressure on yourself and choose a focus that truly resonates with who you are and what you need this upcoming year. 

What are you themes for the new year? How do you plan to grow and challenge yourself this year? Iโ€™d love to hear about your twenty nineteen plans!

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